I'm so scared I can't even describe it. In two weeks I'm gonna start my senior year in high school and it freaks me out. I've always been a great student with high marks, but next year seems horrific. Last year I put my mind, heart, nerves in the studies and in the last 2/3 months I used to cry every day, now I really don't know what I'm gonna do. In June I'll have to face a big exam (here in Italy it's called "maturity") but there're 9 months to face before. I'm most worried about the fact that, with so many subjects, I won't be able to do it; I mean, I don't feel good and strong enough to pass through the next 9/10 months and finally graduate.

I spent a beautiful summer which unfortunately passed really fast; I spent great moments with my friends, learned new things (like preparing a coffee :D) and gained more self-confidence, but this long and difficult journey that lays ahead scares the hell off of me. I can't talk about it with my friends, I only do that with my mother, but, even by talking about it, I can't make myself secure.

I know I probably ruined your f-list, but I needed to relieve my feelings a little.

01. Comment to this entry saying 'ICONS!' and I will pick 5 of your icons.
02. Make an entry in your own journal and talk about the icons I picked!

dean_s_angel chose these:

1. 2.  3.  4.  5.

1. In late spring / early summer an insane Killers obsession caught me and with that my adoration for Brandon Flowers who is totally cool. He's so pretty and shy in such a sweet way that I couldn't resist and put it among my user pics.

2. This is what I've always thought about 'The Comet theory': it can't be Peyton, because the comet left the scientist and nobody understood the pure and beautiful love between the comet and the scientist. It can't be Peyton, Mr. Schwahn made it seem like it was just because he adores Pucas, but that paragraph about the Comet describes Brooke.

3. I'll never stop being in love with this icon, because...well, it's just perfect: Ben and Rachel are so hot in those pictures, the writing is simple but so good at the same time and I don't know, everything just goes insanely well with this icon. My passion for rymmer will never stop and I know, it seems quite pathetic considered they've never actually been a couple. :(

4. Well well, look what we've got: a BL 40's eye-sex!! *drools* Chad and Sophia share an instant and undeniable chemistry that neither the lack of scenes between their characthers in S6 ruined. I mean, look at that staring so full of curiosity, passion and lust and in the 40's: they're even hotter in that atmosphere!

5. I recently fell in love with the Twilight Saga and of course with Jacob Black (I mean, who wants to be on Team Edward? he's SO perfect and predictable!): I truly believe that he and Bella are meant to be together, but they didn't get their chance in the saga, so why not in real life? Kristen and Taylor share a killing and almost incredible chemistry and that photoshoot is awesome and truly shows what their friendship is about. Those two just ROCK!

I'm the youngest child and it has a lot of pros and cons. First of all, I've always had much attention and that's been great, then I didn't have to face the arrival of a brother or a sister and the jealousy that comes from it. But I can't always do what I want, my brother bosses me around many times and just today I realised that he owns our room with all his stupid stuff and I don't know where to put my books! *grr* But my parents tend to defend and protect me during our fights and that's just one of the many pros of being the youngest child. :D

* I downloaded The Script's album and I completely fell in love with their songs, especially I'm Yours, The Man Who Can't Be Moved, If You See Kay and Breakeven

* Taylor Lautner and Kristen Stewart own at life!!! I adore them: they have a killing chemistry and damn, I can't stop looking in awe at my user pic XD ♥

I.need.Ryan/Summer.so.bad.

Last night I finished reading Eclipse and every single scene, every single line between Jacob and Bella made me sure that those two are painfully meant to be together: they love each other so much and everyone can see that, even Edward sometimes!
But wait, there's destiny and just because the dices of fate decided that Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan have to be together, they can't have options. This whole destiny excuse pretty much sucks (look at Lucas and Peyton or Seth and Summer -___-).
It's so unfair!!

I'm so in a Rymmer mood these days it almost scares me.
How can someone love a never-been-canon couple so much?! Videos, icons, blends, walls, fictions of these two never seem enough to me and I miss them and the possibility of them so much! :'(
And I also lost with the crash of my computer some months ago two amazing fictions I wrote/was writing: one, called Wonderwall, was a Rymmer-verse season 4 of the OC (with Seth/Taylor as well ♥), the other was a work in progress entitled Love You 'Till The End which started during an AU s2 and would have continued all through their senior year with a possible sequel during college years in Berkeley.
At least I didn't lose my one-shots and a beautiful fiction of little Summer moving to Chino with her mother and meeting and falling in love with Ryan there.
I hate computer crashes!

I didn't see this coming essentially because I'd started reading Twilight and it'd bored me; then this past November I watched the movie and I could stand it, so a few days ago I decided to read New Moon in order to be prepared on what I'll be watching this November at the cinema. Believe it or not, I read it all in just one day! And my love for Jacob Black increased, if that was possible. He's so caring with Bella and so charming and I just loved that sensation of happiness and security she felt while spending time with him. I can definitely tell I'm on Team Jacob and I think I could have really liked a Jacob/Bella relationship, but I'm not her biggest fan, also because I don't know, I can't really stand Kristen. And about Edward, yes he's like the prince charming, the Romeo of the situation, but I prefer Paris, that's all. I find Robert hot, but he's not that big Oscar actor, you know? At least for me.
I guess I'll must wait until November to find out whether the movie will be as half as good as the book and if I'll change my mind about the Cullen/Swan/Black triangle.

Yesterday I watched episode 3x03 of Supernatural and, although I found it kind of strange at the beginning, it is one of my favourites SPN episodes so far.

Sam falling on the ground, Sam losing his shoe (oh ,that puppy face! ♥), Sam and the fire and then Dean...he's the freaking Dean I adore: challenging luck with lottery and "I'M BATMAN!!" This guy totally deserves a monument! *-* And with regard to it, I used to have an awesome userpic with Dean holding his gun (maybe in the scene with Bela) and the logo of Batman and now I lost it and it would have been perfect as the userpic of this post :'( Anyone would help me try to find it?

And could I forget the wonderful Dean-style ending? In Italian he shouted something like "Daughter of a bitch" in english (I don't know if that's the same in the original version): anyway, I knew he would so I shouted this practically with him YEAH!

So....

I ADORE THE WINCHESTERS!! I'd totally love hanging out with them as a flirt of Dean and a friend of Sam :D

Yesterday I watched for the 3rd time "A Hard Day's Night", the Grey's Anatomy pilot and I understood one more time why I fell in love with this show in the first place.
The way characthers are presented, the dialogues, the dynamics, the music (the 1x01 soundtrack ROCKS!), the fellow-feeling between Meredith and her new 'team'.
Bailey was terrible, Izzie was so young and charming with that student attitude (I adore her glasses and her hair do in the first episodes of S1!), Derek was so young and attractive and Meredith...she was the lovely mess that we learned to appreciate through the years.
And then..George, the most adorable 007 you could ever meet. In the first two seasons he was sweet, sensitive, caring, adorable and yesterday, watching 1x01, I realised how much I'm going to miss him in S6: he was a great characther, but Shonda & Co. gave him all the possible storylines he could have in S1 & 2 and after that he just lost (at least for me) all the genuingess and the appeal that he used to have before. I'm definitely gonna miss you, George 007 O'Malley!

Ok so, I was on YouTube just watching random videos of the fandoms I like and I started watching a Brooke/Julian short fan video. And, as soon as I watched the first scene of this video (their scene in 6x24 outside the hospital) I really don't know what happened but I felt a spark, I saw a special glance and I suspect I started liking this couple...

Jessica Fletcher, definitely.

A few nights ago I thought on which shipper team the inhabitants of Tree Hill might be/have been.
Here are the results:

Nathan: Kind of neutral, even though he might have been on team Brucas, considering his speech to Lucas in 2x10
Haley: On team Brucas in early s4, she jumped in the other team (she can't stand losing, I can see..)
Karen: Neutral, but we all know the special bond between her and Brooke
Keith: He's always been a BLer (and they killed him off the show...)
Mouth: "I always thought your hearts were the same" BLer in heart and soul
Skills: Assh*le, he's always been on team Leyton (I think because he was sexually attracted to Peyton)
Rachel: I think she joined team Brucas after seeing Lucas' shot in 3x07, but she was the frightneted BLer: in fact she was afraid Lucas might have gone back to Peyton
Lindsay: The kind of fan who only watched the CW seasons, but in her case she only read Lucas' book and we all know that (unfairly and unfortunately for us BLers) things get lost in translation
James Lucas: He was born during the 'LP era', but he believes in the possibility of BL (confront 6x03 with his question to Lucas [who was helping his fianceè moving her things to his house]: 'have you ever been in love with aunt Brooke?'): obviously he'd want his godparents to be together
Dan: He just hates Lucas and that's all
Anna: Hell yes, a total BLer (well, just because she wanted blonde-curls all for her :P)!
Chase/Owen: Obviously LPers...
Victoria: LPer: she never wanted Brooke to be distracted by charming and sensible guys [read: Lucas Eugene Scott]
Jake: For the same reasons of Chase and Owen, BLer
Millicent: Mm....I don't know, but I think that Mouth could convince her to join team Brucas
Julian: It's complicated, but I believe that he surely was a BLer while dating Peyton, but clearly jumped on team Leyton after getting with Brooke
Mia: She was surprised by the fact that Lucas slept with both girls, but, because of Peyton being her mentor, she's on team Leyton
Bevin: That bit*h! Being Brooke's silly friend in high school I thought she was a BLer, but they completely changed her believings in 5x11 with that scene at the mall -.-'

I love these two so much! I know, it's crazy since they're from two different shows, but I've always thought James and Rachel would have an incredible chemistry. I wrote a fan fiction with them, Ryan/Brooke, Haley/Julian, Karen/Andy, Mouth/Millicent, single Skills, etc. and God! I want icons of this couple so bad!!! If only I'd be able to make them. -.-''

Oh God, all this love for Peyton Sawyer is almost ridicolous. Nobody understands how horrible she is: she stole to her so-told best friend the only person that mattered to her, the guy who loved her more than anyone in the entire world, the guy whom Brooke loved so much that she had the strenght to let go. She lied, she cheated, she always acted like the victim of everything and anything and everybody (in real world and in Tree Hill) love her.

I wonder why people who only watched s4/5/6 of One Tree Hill are Leyton fans if in those three seasons the chemistry of Chad and Sophia was killed by the lack of scenes.... Brucas were the meant to be couple, Peyton was the poison in their relationship: they were different and complemetary to each other, they made each other better; they were sexy, hot, deep, the kind of couple formed by people who can get each other with a single look. And she (kind of the alter ego of Mr. Schwhan) ruined everything. Everything was so rushed: she needed poor in love Jake to help her understand she was still in love with Lucas (oh, he's the love of your life but you want to marry another guy?!?), then she confessed everything to Brooke only because she wanted to be honest this time around (not to put her under pressure, of course: she's the bestest friend you could wish for!) and that Jerk Scott didn't even try to fight for her and just told her "I'm sorry" (...). And of course Peyton, after having obtained everything she wanted, didn't tell Lucas the entire story (wow, a true love story is now based on lies, secrets, cheating and hurting!): honey, were you afraid to lose him by telling him the truth?

Peyton has been unfair to Lindsey as well: she comes back to Tree Hill, refused Lucas' proposal and claims to have him back...he was just waiting for you, darling. S5 is ridicolous: everybody cheering and sure that Lucas is just denying and that he's not in love with his amazing new girlfriend but with that blonde frustatred and failing whiny girl who's sure to hold the copyright on Lucas Eugene Scott. In 5x09, she acts like a stupid little girl, desperate that someone stole her favourite toy and cries in front of Brooke because the moquette of the library has been changed since her and Lucas' cheating on their (respectively) best friend and girlfriend (Brooke Davis is a saint!). The reason why Lindsey runs away during the wedding it's one of the stupidest I've ever heard, even Lucas is sure of that: everybody is telling him what to do, forming a cheerleader squad for him and that whiny bitch, everybody is sure that he is even lying to his heart. He tells desperate-in-love-blond that he hates her (my OTH favourite scene ever!) and just a night later he proposes to her (the enthusiasm on his face was SO evident during that oh-so-romantic call from the airport) and she obviously ran to him: they didn't talk about his "I do" to Lindsey, his "I hate you" to her or about her responsibility in his break-up from Brooke.

And their epicness is so overrated: they're just two stupid twins separated at birth, but you know what? Life happens, destiny changes, he met Brooke, she met Jake - this is how OTH should've finished, that's what True Love Always is about. Truth, unselfishness, complementary differences.

Oh and by the way, if True Love is like Pucas' love, then I think I'll be happy with any untrue love that comes my way.

It'd be about the OTH most famous love triangle (or should I say the most famous television love triangle EVER!?): Brooke/Lucas/Peyton.

I want to write it for real, beginning in a few days.

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Yesterday I finally finished school: it was a long and difficult year for me, but it was definitely worth it.

Now I can relax and is there a better way to relax than enjoying my favourite tv shows? One Tree Hill (season 5) is starting on Monday, Ghost Whisperer (season 3) started last Monday and then there are plenty more tv shows I'm watching at the moment, but I can't wait to see the Winchesters again on Tuesday July the 21st with season 3. Here in Italy summer isn't summer without Supernatural!

Hope we'll all have a very Supernatural Summer! :D

On the 21st I'll turn 18 years old and a few days before I'm gonna throw a birthday party: I just wish my crush will come and (a girl can dream) tell me I'm beautiful and dance with me.

+ Name your 10 (+extra one) absolutely favorite couples (het/slash/canon/fanon) and ask people to see what trends they notice about your couples. Try to pick diff fandoms.

Brooke/Lucas (One Tree Hill)
Ryan/Summer (The OC)
Dean/Haley (SPN/OTH)
Alex/Izzie (Grey's Anatomy)
Sam/Brooke (SPN/OTH)
Jake/Peyton (One Tree Hill)
Peter/Brooke (Heroes/OTH)
Piper/Leo (Charmed)
Chuck/Haley (GG/OTH)
Justin/Haley (B&S/OTH)

and....

Julian/Haley (One Tree Hill)

What do you say? :D